Oh WAKE UP Canada

Fair Criticism

I worked for 13 years in 8 branches of 7 Federal Government Departments. just.saying.

I have been an out lesbian since 1992 and you have no idea the cost that’s been to me on a personal and professional level. so I say, anyone who’s self loathing closet case in a position of power or influence to do harm and does – must be outed by the community.
Queer Nation from the late 80’s and 90’s people. Seriously, lets’ see some Act Up hussel out there. Lesbian Avengers rule. grassroots community non-violent but artistically rendered activism!

What is it to grow up

What does it mean to grow up emotionally? When you ask a person how old they are and how old they feel, more often than not, the numbers will be different.

For most of my twenties, I didn’t feel that different from my teen years. I didn’t live that differently either, except that I was responsible for my own apartment. My 30s didn’t feel different from my twenties, but were definitely different than my teens. At 43, my life seems remote from these earlier decades, but while the change is apparent now, when the change occurred remains elusive.

But it’s not that my idealism has lessened, but my sense of being able to bring about that idealism in the world, that’s what changed.

Part of it is likely from movies and pop culture – 30 used to be a big number – the 1960’s cry of trust no one over 30. Well, until the 60’s youth became 30 so the 30 of the 1960’s becomes the 40 of the 1980’s. But now, now it seems that 50 is the new 30, 60 the new 40. Will the boomers ever stop dominating ageism and accept they are older and are not the sole group entitled to the world stage?

How much of aging is feeling the age of the day? Feeling that your generation is driving the age, rather than being by-passed?

Even as adults, we experience things that make us feel like children.

Being called to the boss’s office feels no different than being called to the principal’s office.

In fact, you even end up feeling smaller and less powerful walking to the bosses office – as if you’re defeating yourself before you close the door behind you.

Aside: I read once that keeping cats and dog as pets, fed, protected, played with and petted keeps the animal in a childhood state of their development. Well kept dogs and cats are generally playful and affectionate throughout their lives while cats and dogs that experience hardships like bad owners or being feral, they tend to not be affectionate and playing is practice for hunting or fighting.

So, as long as we as adults reduce each other to childhood states, then there are no grown ups – both the workplace boss is as the schoolyard bully and the victimized adult is as the victimized child.

The observation that I have long made is that we cannot eliminate bullying in the schoolyard, or else the children won’t be prepared for the adult workplace, is sadly and tragically true.

But, I am finding that less funny now.

In some ways, bulling between children is easier to cope with because we were all children with no authority over each other – the bully exerts power of size or numbers over others, but has no authority to do so.

As, as an adult, when your bully is your boss, they exert both power and authority over you, making it much more difficult to defend yourself, because the authority of the boss’ position means that the employee is up against not only the authority, but the entitlement to authority – and bullies of any age are enamored with their entitlements, which, they take as their due more than merely their ability to force themselves upon you.

As a child in school, I easily handled bullies. I was usually taller and heavier than  the bullies who picked on friends of mine or more rarely, who picked on me.

When the fighting was brought to the attention of teachers or administration, despite being the person who threw the first punch, I was never suspended or had detention; because I could explain and justify my actions as being in defense of myself or more usually, others; and against generally known bullies.

Because I felt that my actions were correct, I had no difficulties as a child or teen talking to the authority adult figure as a peer. I was never picked last for sports, I was always picked first and universally to be the referee or umpire by my peers.

Aside: I challenged a teacher in grade 11 gym by taking an umbrella out to play soccer in the rain.  The policy and practice had always been that the girls did not go outside for gym in the rain. I was offered the choice of putting the umbrella away or going to the office. Breaking with decades of class clown tradition, I went to the office.

The principal tried to cajole me by asking how much sense it makes to play soccer with an umbrella and I replied, the same amount of sense that playing in the rain was.

He then tried to convince me that regardless of the policy and past practice, that we had to allow teachers the authority to make decisions.

To which, I responded that the last time I had followed orders, the gym teacher had us run backwards across the field, and that I ended up falling over someone else who tripped, landed on the small of my back and ended up hurt – and, as it turned out, with lifetime back problems.

The smile ran off his face, and even though I had to sit in the “bad boy chairs” outside the office, I felt that I had won a victory. Plus, it was fun the aftermath scandal of me, the goody two shoes girl, being in the bad boy chairs.

So, as a child, I learned by experience and by my rearing, to question authority, especially when said authority was questionable or dubious to begin with.

Which becomes a minefield as an adult, when you realize, how little genuine authority that there is – and most of it is artificially created and unearned though workplace organization charts and the social pecking order of mean girls.

When bulling occurs in the workplace, the person who is blamed is the victim who stands up and says no more. In the workplace, it seems that the naming of a problem becomes the problem to solve.

It seems that the only way to be an adult, is to let go of the childhood hurts and triggers – so that when another adult behaves inappropriately and pushes those childhood buttons; that you have already disabled the button – and can maintain grown up conduct in the current situation.

All the workplace conflicts come down to the same core issues as playground conflict – who gets to play in the group and who doesn’t. Who’s in and who’s out.

Being an individual and not conforming to the group is the quickest way to being out – and unlike when you’re a kid, there are no grown ups to restore order and resolve the conflict.

When it’s workplace bullying, there is no resolution, just ever worsening bullying until you quit or die. Because bullies will do whatever it takes to continue to get to be bullies, they don’t care about people or productivity or the corporate culture.

They want the people who complain to be isolated – alone, it’s harder to fight back, defend yourself or even fend off attacks. They want the potential allies and witnesses to be too intimidated to stand as witnesses, for fear of being the next victim. So instead of standing together, we are divisible and one victim is thrashed and tormented while the others watch, silent so as to not draw fire and suffer the dread and worry about being next, or perhaps relief that the bully might be sated for a while.

But growing up is about risk and responsibility, and we have a responsibility, obligation even, to uphold the social contract, the workplace policies, the law of the land.

It’s not about skating by and avoiding trouble, all for yourself and everyone else can look out for themselves,  it’s about fighting the good fight, making a difference in the world, it’s about being cooperative, it’s about avoiding regrets and being the change you want to see in the world.

For me, that means, I do not allow bullies to win.

The human experience of the world is no longer nature, red in tooth and claw – that’s not what has gotten us to where we are today – cooperative behaviours are what has allowed humans to become the apex species of a world that, frankly, operates better without people altering the landscape as we have.

It’s our ability to cooperate and be more than the sum of our parts, to defer gain and pleasures to the future while we sacrifice and make an effort now.

What purpose is there to working for a better future, if we are just going to continue tolerating bullying, inequality and unfairness in the here and now? When, we could take a stand and make the present better and the future even brighter.

Because we can’t always choose…not..to kill…today

[War] is instinctive. But the instinct can be fought. We’re human beings with the blood of a million savage years on our hands! But we can stop it. We can admit that we’re killers…but we’re not going to kill…today. That’s all it takes! Knowing that we’re not going to kill…today!
Kirk in ‘A Taste Of Armageddon‘ (at 6:15 minutes in)

Over our lives, there will be occasions where we will be a victim, we will victimize someone, we will watch a person be victimized and on rare occasions, under the right conditions, we may stop that victimization of another person or refuse to be victimized.

You are probably protesting that you’d ever be one or allow someone to be or make someone into one. Consider these three events and then consider how much they contribute to any historical or current event – global or even personal.

In the early 1960’s, a  Yale University professor, Stanley Milgram designed an experiment to test obedience:

He found, surprisingly, that 65% of his subjects, ordinary residents of New Haven, were willing to give apparently harmful electric shocks-up to 450 volts-to a pitifully protesting victim, simply because a scientific authority commanded them to, and in spite of the fact that the victim did not do anything to deserve such punishment.

In 1964,  Kitty Genovese was murdered with 38 known witnesses. She was attacked twice by the same assailant, her cries for help ignored.  No one phoned the police and she bled to death. Or so the story went.

In 1971, the infamous  Stanford Prison Experiment took place. A planned 2 week experiment in which half of the participants were prisoners and the other half guards. In four days, the guards went from verbal abuse and humiliation to an escalation of sexual humiliation. The experiment had to be canceled after 6 days.  The images from this event are parallel to the images and stories from Abu Ghraib.

What these two experiments and the witness response to the murder reveal is that there is no such thing as absolute morals, and by extension, inherent  human rights.

Or perhaps at least that who we consider human and worthy of rights is often flexible.

The sum of these three are that ordinary people will absolve themselves of any:

  • moral responsibility if that responsibility can be shifted to an authority figure.
  • direct responsibility to take action if there are other people around so that responsibility is dissipated through the group. Unless, like in the 1977 Beverly Hills Supper Club fire, the people involved had a clear understanding of their social role.
  • accountability if the “authority” encourages abuse or fails to prevent escalating abuse of a group of people with less power and are not deemed to be equal or even human.

These behavioral factors combined with the right conditions, are what allow everything from genocide to bullying in the schoolyard or workplace to occur in plain view. Evil is banal, not exceptional.

It is the belief that another person or group is not an equal to ourselves combined with the condition of having some power over them,  that results in actual abuse or allowing abuse to occur.

Adding government sanction, or worse, a divine authority’s sanction into the mix, is incendiary.

If we all actually believed that we were all equally valuable and entitled to fair treatment and rights, could the following events of the last say 150 or so years have taken place or be allowed to continue to occur? (this isn’t a comprehensive or in any hierarchical order)

  • Reservations for Aboriginal people
  • Holocaust of the Jews and other social undesirables in WWII
  • South African Apartheid/Jim Crow Laws
  • Vatican cover up of pedophile priests
  • Military abuse of civilians and prisoners in all wars and conflicts
  • 9/11 and the resulting war on terrorism

These behaviors and conditions are also applied in medium size (comparatively) contexts:

  • Systemic discrimination towards any marginalized group
  • The fact of there being marginalized groups
  • Religious campaigns against other religions
  • Religious campaigns against civil rights advancements, first for women, then ethnic minorities and currently, against gays and lesbians.
  • Homeless and working poor

Right down to the personal arena of people who participate in abuse, fail to report abuse or not taking a stand against it.

  • Mobs or gangs out to murder or assault random individuals from their targeted group – generally other ethnicity,  gays/lesbians/trans, other religious groups
  • Harassment and abuse in the workplace
  • Bullying in the schoolyard – the ‘Thou Shall Not Fink” school yard code is an excellent example of witnesses being what amounts to complicit in the abuse.

We have to do more than chose not to kill…today, if we are going to reduce, minimize or end these social horrors large and small.

We need to see how these horrors large and personal are related consequences of these  social behaviors.

We have to make a concerted effort to see each other as equal humans and not allow systemic discrimination or groups of people to be demonized and dehumanized.

We need a concerted effort to override the religious and social beliefs that allow us to measure others and find them lacking, less than, unworthy of consideration.

Each of us is really only as good a person as we treat and regard others. It gets back to that Think and Care idea.

We have a legal obligation to obey the law, but a moral responsibility to question it.