riffin – from the draft archive

the gospel of Elvis

Religion seeks to control you
by making you think that you deserve to feel bad for something you’ve done

to make sure you feel bad about something you’ve done
religion picks on sex and sexuality

everyone feels sexual, you can’t escape it, it’s on your mind


That you deserve sex is the highest form of self-love
self-love is masturbation
enlightenedlove is a an opposite gender couple

perpetual enlightenment heightened self love is a same gender couple

mother issues – SM self imposed punishment – lesbian is the safe word

to change from insanity to sanity

you have to forgive yourself, let go of the anger

that you have towards yourself for things that you did and didn’t do
for things that you think that you’ve done or failed to do

do not take on more responsibility or guilt or blame

than what is appropriate to what you have actually done

if you are damned if you do and damned if you don’t

then the only outcome of doomed to fail is to succeed

at some level of magnitude, since nothing ever works out how it is expected to, including failure

the path between; pick the path, each will have it’s own sphere of influence

in terms of a position, it’s regulating an interface

Meaning of life and pursuing happiness

Now I lay me down to sleep, I remind my brain that I liiiiiiikkkkeeeeee sleep

last thoughts before bed

deep cleansing breath

notice and let go

Good night internet

Writer Chat 41 – Separation of Hollywood and Religion

The summer of 1985, I spent working as a chambermaid on the TransCanada highway, somewhere between Banff and what was then a tiny village, not even a town, Canmore.

I was 17 years old and I met a woman named Clyster Hayes. She was in her 40’s and was writing musical theatre. She was an amazing woman and she introduced me to a lot of new things and ideas that summer. I can honestly say that my life would have been poorer if I had not met her. I always regretted not keeping in touch, but such is what happens when you are a callow youth with a world awaiting to be conquered.

There is one particular story and piece of advice that I would like to share, because it was possibly the best timed and most needful thing that I ever listened to right at the moment that I needed to hear truth the most.

Clyster was a singer before she was a writer and when she was 19, she was offered her own variety show on CBC, Canada’s National Television Network. Americans could think of it as PBS as a whole network.

She turned down the opportunity, because she knew that at 19, she didn’t know herself well enough. That becoming famous would forever change the life she was just sorting out for herself. She didn’t regret that choice in her 40’s.

Being 44 now myself. I better understand, because I pursued fame as a career goal.

But the career I wanted was not the one that I ended up having. That was okay with me, because fame was always a minor goal in the grand scheme of goals for my life.

Because I have always cared more for social justice and equality, long before I ever considered fame or when fame became a real possibility for me.

And I still do. Care more about social justice, equality and fairness more than any other value.

The pursuit of happiness is not made possible by the pursuit of money. Easier yes, money creates shortcuts in ways that have unintended consequences  when or maybe if a person is lucky enough to learn just how hollow an achievement money is when it’s the end and not merely a means to support something more noble.

but unless you can be happy with who you are as a person, you will always be vulnernable to the whims and will of others.

who will offer whatever it takes to get your attention or your money and offer to cure what illness your own insecurities creates.

There is nothing wrong with being gay – and religion is the primary means by which that not being okay is created, so they can only cure that by stopping the hate and lies that makes people feel bad about themselves.

The group or person who makes you insecure in yourself cannot help you to regain any measure of security.

that goes for demographic social group interactions across society or just between 2 people in a relationship.

Change the conversation, change the relationship.

Writer Chat 38 – writing what you know – life work and vacay

still depends on how much about life that you know. it’s better to have many skills if you want to write than just develop writing skills. Life is to be lived and that’s the biggest talent we have to make the most of.

Blue Moon – August 31, 2012 – a Tribute to Elvis August 31, 1957


Because this is the book that I read and mentioned to Elvis Sidekicks Joe Esposito and Jerry Schilling.

The only 2 members of the Memphis Mafia that I ever wanted to meet because I read so many Elvis books when I was a kid that I thought that they were the only 2 who were ever really friends with Elvis in a meaningful way.

And you know what happened? They both yelled at me.

I don’t think Elvis would have approved of that.

So you know, I totally sympathize with Elvis on why he fired those other bodyguards.

You don’t get to rough up the fans who were responsible for Elvis success and you sure as fuck don’t do it to fans now either who are keeping Elvis’ memory alive.